depressed-angel

Every night when everyone's asleep, I softly call out your name, I only hope one day you'll know, So that you will do the same. If you really and truly love me, Baby, please let me know, Because I'm finding it near impossible, For me to just let go. I'll never forget the love we had, And the memories we once shared, Neither will I forget the secrets, Or how much you once cared. But then suddenly, before I knew it, It was over and you tore out my heart, You didn't care about us anymore, And I should've known from the start. The only place where I'll be with you, Is in my dreams each night, Maybe those fantasies will become a

Everything in my world has turned upside down, I'm swimming in depression and I'm about to drown, I can't hold on much longer, I'm about to let go, I'll float to my death and my emptiness will show. Nobody knows what I'm going through, They've all told me they've felt it too, But they don't see what I try to hide, And they don't feel my pain inside. Every word gets my mind more and more tossed, Every day I feel more and more lost, I need somebody to help me, but nobody will, My body's alone as its laying still. My entire world has crashed and fallen apart, I'm left with nothing but a twisted mind and a broken heart. Look at the

All my life I've been lying, Lying to everyone that I know, Because I'm afraid you'll see the truth, I'm scared my feelings will show. I'm not worth anybody's words or time, No one would notice if I'm ever gone, So leave me alone in my own little world, And don't blame me for my wrongs. I'm trapped in a place thats black and dark, I can't see what I'm headed for, I'm faced with depression and emptiness, And I keep screaming out for more. I don't care what other people tell me, Life isn't as easy as what people say, They think that I'll make it if I believe, But it gets more harder for me everyday. I really never cared what oth

I know I shouldn't be with you, I know I shouldn't care anymore, But I'm always going to remember, The day you slammed the door. Now I stand here in the dark, Realizing that you're now gone, Things are flashing in my mind, Like the things that I've done wrong. I could've cared a little more, I could've said I wanted you to stay, I could've proven I loved you, Even though you didn't feel that way. I treated you badly, Although I really cared, I never told you, I thought you knew, That I would always be there. But obviously, that wasn't enough, You wanted more from me, I gave you everything I could, But it seems we're not mea

I'm sitting on the rooftop, Just listening to the sounds, The birds, the wind passing by, And the people all around. I want to be just like them, Always walking with a smile, But the thought of being happy, Seems to drive me wild. There's just no place here, For a dark depressing girl, I want to rid the pain inside, I want to leave this world. I feel I have to hurt myself, In order to be proud, I feel I have to hide my thoughts, In order to be loud. Maybe the world will hear me, If I just shut myself out, But I've already taken that risk, And now I have some doubts. If I commit suicide and kill myself, It'd just be anoth

...Why? Why do you do this to me? I should've known from the start, Why do you act like I don't matter, Why do you keep breaking my heart? Tell me what I want to know, Why did you act like you cared? And now that its over, Why do you act like I'm not there? Your words are so painful, And I can't stand hearing what you have to say, Why do you torture me so much, Each and every waking day? I know you don't have feelings anymore, So why do you remind me of the past? Why do you make it seem like I can't let go, Of the love that couldn't last? Why did you just forget about us, After all the hurt you put me through? You don't eve

People keep breaking my heart, Over and over again, I said I wouldn't fall next time, I said the pain would end. But it turns out I was wrong, Because I fell at first sight, You walked in unexpected, And made everything seem right. I thought guys like you, Only existed in my dreams, And I spent all my life, Wishing for you, so it seems. Now I can stop hoping, To find someone who cares, Because you're the one I love, If only you knew I was there. You act like I'm not alive, Like I don't exist in this world, But it doesn't matter to anyone, I'm just another girl. Yet I still haven't lost faith, It's just something inside,

Tell me this isn't happening, Tell me it's just a dream. And tell me I'm not living, The life you make it seem. You made my world seem brighter, You cleared up the dark skies, You helped me through the storms, And guided me past the lies. You swore you'd always be there, But now, you're really gone... I'm left to watch the sunset, And to sit alone till dawn. I'm alone here without you, My life's returned to black. What I would give to see you, For you to come right back. But life's not that simple, You really disappeared, There's no one left to guide me, To help me face my fears. I thought I wouldn't live, But I learned s

Strangers, pacing down crowded streets, Glaring, as if we were a virus, Mocking our familiar way of life, And walking as if we did not matter. I want to run...run away. The small baby in a new bed, Screaming as if comfort weren\'t enough, Opening his big blue eyes to life, And facing each day with a family. I want to run...run away. The girl across town in a palace, Laughing at those less fortunate, Watching those below her suffer, Counting her wealth day after day. I want to run...run away. You, in this heard of mine, Escaping the realities of life with me, Strengthening me with hope for better days, And challenging the fut

Mind going blank, Pictures fading fast. The world begins to spin, How much longer will this last? My vision becomes blurry My knees start to get weak My hands begin to shake, My voice struggles to speak. My words become a whisper Although I try to shout. I'm tyring to escape Run from my world of doubt. Like a static television screen, Or a familiar sound gone wrong. My life becomes distorted Like the incorrect words to a song. The memories start to age, And I start to get old, But still, every night, These nightmares haunt me cold. I try to forget, What I did to deserve this; The night I met Death, And almost fell for h

She talks a little slower now Fearing her words will catch up to her She doesn't smile like she used to The reason isn't there She reads on she reads on Longing for the passion She can only feel in print Her heart beats a little faster now Her eyes narrow and steady their gaze Inside her brain the spider spins Stealing blood from conscious thought It grows weaker it grows weaker Her breath thickens as she turns To look away from the truth Her eyes seem a little sadder now She picks up a penny and colors it red As if Abe could help her at all She doesn't wish for a pointless war But just to feel just to feel For a fragment o